My New Years Resolution.

My resolution is that I will not be eating candy cookies or ice cream for the next year. I had my resolution decided back in November mainly because I was kind of discusted with myself. When ever I would eat these things I would gorge on them and its just awful I would tell myself that I need to calm down on eating these things but I craved it all the time and when I say all the time I mean ALL THE TIME. I finally got to the point that I was tired of craving these things and that it needed to stop. I figured out that it is a all or nothing thing when it comes to sweet. I would eat like 15 cookies a day if they were around, ice cream I would eat like 2 heaping bowls a day if it was around and if I didn't have it at my house I would eat my sisters ice cream! And candy..... if you know me candy is my love, I just love candy. So I decided that this needs to stop.

My goal with this is to hopefully make it so I don't look at these things and just want to pounce on it, lose weight, and feel better about myself. I had decided in November that on the first of the year is when I would start so that I could prepare myself mentally for this, because for me this is a HUGE thing. And you know what it has worked! When it came to the new year it was like a switch in my head. When I go to the store, I don't look and those things and sit there and wish that I could have it. It doesn't appeal to me. I'm way excited I know that its only been 15 days but you know what I haven't eaten any of the said things and........ I've lost 4 pounds!!!!! The other reason why I am so motivated to do this is because I shared with a friend on day my resolution back in December and this person proceeded to tell me that the reason why most new years resolutions fail is because they were unrealistic..... and then proceeded on telling me a better way to go about it. I know that this person meant well, but it felt like this person was telling me I was going to fail. And I didn't like that. So here I am. I am going to prove to myself that I can do it.

I have to admit I have had only one craving and it was today I wanted a Andes mint which is something I hardly ever eat. I know random! And I have been having dreams that I'm eating candy and then I realize in my dream what I am doing and I'm like NOOOOOOOOOO! And then I wake up and think wow that was weird. I know silly. Anywho. So that's my resolution. And I'm gonna do it darn it!